why am i the way i am ?
i hav asked myself this question millions of times, and never got ananswer...why am i the way i am..why do i say things i shouldn't...whycant i just keep my mouth shut(and hands folded, in case I'mtyping)...sometimes, it's almost as if there is no control on yourself, or theurge to let it out becomes so strong that all dams break...is itright? i dont think so...and that's only part of the problem....this mind is such a complexmatrix....there are billions of things, views and counter-views,opinions and counter-opinions, obligations, desires, expectations,fears, so much that i cant even write....Sometimes you know what the correct thing is, you really do know it,but still you do exactly the opposite...God knows what fun we deriveout of commit a mistake knowingly, knowing that it may hurt someone,and knowing fully well that more than anyone it's gonna hurt US...thatwe will regret it later...It's like a sensible part of you thatstelling you continuosly NOT to do what another part of you pushes youto continue doing...It's such a paradox....Indeed nothing in life is stranger than life itself...Sometimes, we conveniently forget the truth, or fool ourselves intobelieving that it's not...when we know that the person in front of me is able to understandevery hidden motive behind what I am doing, why do i still keep ondoing it, imagining that i shall be still able to fulfill mymotive....what's the logicbut i still do itcan someone tell me why????????????
i'M SO STUPID, SO PATHETIC, SUCH A FOOL...BUT STILL I DO NOTHING ABOUT IT...WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?????????????WHY AM I THE WAY I AM?
i hav asked myself this question millions of times, and never got ananswer...why am i the way i am..why do i say things i shouldn't...whycant i just keep my mouth shut(and hands folded, in case I'mtyping)...sometimes, it's almost as if there is no control on yourself, or theurge to let it out becomes so strong that all dams break...is itright? i dont think so...and that's only part of the problem....this mind is such a complexmatrix....there are billions of things, views and counter-views,opinions and counter-opinions, obligations, desires, expectations,fears, so much that i cant even write....Sometimes you know what the correct thing is, you really do know it,but still you do exactly the opposite...God knows what fun we deriveout of commit a mistake knowingly, knowing that it may hurt someone,and knowing fully well that more than anyone it's gonna hurt US...thatwe will regret it later...It's like a sensible part of you thatstelling you continuosly NOT to do what another part of you pushes youto continue doing...It's such a paradox....Indeed nothing in life is stranger than life itself...Sometimes, we conveniently forget the truth, or fool ourselves intobelieving that it's not...when we know that the person in front of me is able to understandevery hidden motive behind what I am doing, why do i still keep ondoing it, imagining that i shall be still able to fulfill mymotive....what's the logicbut i still do itcan someone tell me why????????????
i'M SO STUPID, SO PATHETIC, SUCH A FOOL...BUT STILL I DO NOTHING ABOUT IT...WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?????????????WHY AM I THE WAY I AM?
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